2004.1.31

I would like to introduce a good book to you.That is "How to win friends and influence others & How to stop worring and start living" written by Dale Carnegie who was called the greatest spirit leader in the twentieth century.As the book tells us,people own happiness while people do think they are happy.I therefore tried to make myself to feel happier though I finally got her attitude.I was so delighted to get messages from Lao Lu and Zeng Yan.Another thing made me excited was that I passed through the game "Jackal" which I had never played to the end before.

2004.1.30

Some ideas of innovation show that red,yellow and blue towels can be better sold when mixed with black and white towels as the latter towels make strong contrast to the former which seem to be more colourful.I thought that this principle could be used in website design as well.Today I looked like a pitiful creature and begged of her to give me another chance.I was totally ridiculous.

2004.1.29

A man came to 301 station to check the TV receiver.The station became lively as more people returned.We ate dumplings together at night.After meal I followed mum to the Puba Railway Station for some affairs.I studied something about train's dispatch there.On our way home the beautiful scene of the flicker starlight in the dark sky recalled my memory of the Chinese Valentine's Day when we used to send messages to each other in the same starlight on July 29th,2003.

2004.1.28

It's hopeless to retrieve.I walked along the railway.I walked on and on.Just speechless.It seemed that it is common desire of us to walk along such one way in the past sweet days,but now we switched to respective ways.

2004.1.27

The bananas grew in 301 station and picked by dad tasted really delicious.We had supper with Uncle Huang and his lovely baby who is also my "related" brother(the god-son of my parents).Today is the birthday of one of my dearest friends Kang Sheng.I wish our situation could get improved this year as Kang Sheng,Xiong Wei and I felt depressed these days.

2004.1.26

Because of the new high-road project many of the woods outside the enclosing wall of the 301 station were damaged by bulldozer.In the past I rarely went into these woods because that they were too thick with many snakes.However,I could freely idle about now.Many chestnut trees were cut down remaining only roots but more were intact.I climbed on the hill and got deeply into the woods I never dared to go before.I really like these things.Today I also noticed that there were lights projected from the opposite mountain which was on the other side of the Anning River dark in the night.I wondered how people there could light lights as the electric station had never built electric transportation project on that mountain before.Dad told me that the minorities living there set up a mini hydroelectric station which could meet the basic power requirement of several families there according to the rich waterpower in this region.It is certain that technology has changed people's life so much.Aunt Dong made a phonecall to invite me to Yongchuan to tutor Mingming in this summer vacation. 

2004.1.25

The wind blew strongly today.Mr Bai called me back to Wuding at Jan 27th.However,there are so many things remaind to do that I must stay at home longer.

2004.1.24

My family was invited to a friend's home in a country called Liusuo near Dechang.We took train to there with staves from Puba Railway Station.The country was quiet and beautiful with yellow rapes everywhere.I walked through the farmland and felt less sorrowful.

2004.1.23

Stayed at home watching TV.Still enjoyed the comment on Michael Jackson.However,it is out of my life now.

2004.1.22

Everyone has its own individual character,or personality.I was so sorry that I often offended.I was waiting for an explanation but never I have.I watched the programme directed by Dou Wentao about Michael Jackson with great interests.

2004.1.21

By some reason I felt unhappy all day through.Maybe I was too serious.Dad,Mum and I had a nice supper and then we sat in sofa watching TV.This was the Lunar New Year's Eve.Although my family members were all here I felt somewhat ignored by certain reasons.We fired the firecrackers at the coming of the new year.Bless all my dear friends a pleasant vacation and a happy Lunar New Year.

2004.1.20

We returned to Puba early in the morning by the station's car right after we bought many foods in Dechang's lively market.The TV receiver was changed into an enhanced one with a piece of code-unlocking card which could receives and unlocks the television programme signals from the satellite.By using this new receiver we can receive more TV channels from different countries and regions(like Taiwan,Hongkong and Macau).The most attractive channel is the MATV as it broadcast wonderful films especially many good movies by Zhou Xingchi everyday.I revived the film "Tang Bo Hu Dian Qiu Xiang" I first saw at Ganfei's home with her after we graduated from the junior middle school in 1996.

2004.1.19

Mum went to climb the Mount Lu with her fellow worker for a sports meet held by the sales company of the Panxi Prison.I went to webbar to spend the time while waiting for the coming of the noon.I was also waiting for her message.

2004.1.18

I spent most of the time at home watching TV and I was told that Shanghai snowed heavily today.

2004.1.17

The day in Xichang was boring as I could just stay at home watching TV and reading books.I reviewed a long fiction story about CT and found it still intreasting.I wonder if CT could really be the main power resource for people in the afterwards,or even now.

2004.1.16

The lunch was in a restaurant with many kinds of amusement services near Dechang Town.We got there at 11:30 with people from Shenlong Fertilize Factory and Puba Railway Station.We had hot pot there.Late after they had supper my mother and I took the car to Xichang.We arrived home at 10:30 in the night.

2004.1.15

Yesterday was the birthday of my dear friend x.My deepest and best wishes~(This was the fifth birthday after we finally recongnized each other).The power supply recovered.I was glad to see that there were so many fancy TV channels include phoenixtv,phoenixtv information,channel v,chinasuntv,TVB8,star TV,sports star TV,NOW,India Music(IM),Maya cn and so on.I nearly spent whole day watching TV programmes.

2004.1.14

We returned to another home my parents worked in Puba in Dechang country. The mountain seems really high with rare trees as I compared them to Mount Lion in Wuding.When I got home I found surroundings changed a lot in just two or three months because of the new high-way building project.Big construction machines were busy digging the ground and a new bridge was on its way.The old 108 Road would also change its way to comfort the new project. The power was off through the whole day and the dark night was really dull. 

2004.1.13

The mist was thick in the cold morning and the bus from Wuding hardly found its way to Kunming. Farewell my little house, and farewell Xiangshui. When I got to Huangtupo Station in Kunming I "idling" on the noisy street and looked into some small cd shop. There I bought some software disks including flash(flash mx 2004) and photoshop(photoshop cs 8.0). It`s just painful to download software from slow resource sites in the webbar before I wanted to make use of them and all I need is properly a disk. I returned to Xichang by K114 at nearly 10:20 in the night. Mother was waiting for me at the gate of the 301 community.

2004.1.12[支教日记]第一百三十四天

周一。今天是批试卷的最后一天。也是支教一个学期的最后一天。支教，日记到今天就暂时为止了，明天我将从昆明坐火车回西昌，然后在家里过这一个春节。中午到街上理发店找西昌老乡并理发，店里的人说他们上个周就回去了。不过也习惯一个人到处跑了。从第一天上课开始，到今天回首，有很多很多愉快和不愉快的事情，有成功有挫折，有高兴有难过。不知道这一个学期给我的是什么东西，只是很茫然就匆匆弹指半年了。以前在上海的时候，还和老陆打算，要到云南买一台电脑，或者是在上海买了带过来，还商量了很多运送电脑的方法，结果没有想到，在武定有方便的网吧，这使网络一直没有离开我（这包括两方面，一个是上网，一个是玩游戏）。甚至，没有想到的是，我还能够在网吧下载软件，在这里如此不方便而又如此有兴趣的做一点“设计”。虽然是一些简单的不花时间的设计，但看上去还不太坏。想起了什么，就做下来。做了一个研究生支教团的网站，没有调试工具的情况下还做了asp，这样的速度自己也有点惊奇，后来是有学生捣乱关闭了，其实从我网站首页的连接还能进去。然后是偶然的情况下做了两份华师大主页投稿，没想到就和老陆并列入选了，一个通宵的成果，还是很超值的。今年的新年贺卡我也做了，虽然也是很简单，但还有人喜欢。并且很愉悦地和朋友分发分享。恐怕到这里最幸运的事情，就是电脑和网络从来都没有离开过我吧。在教学方面，教了两个公认的差班，109是不用说了，覆水难收，这次考试没有一个人及格，这个我已经没有办法扭转了。而初一121的成绩在全年级也不是最坏，好象平均分大概67.7分还是正数第三倒数第五，这样的结果，对于这样的过程来说，似乎就已经足够。实际上：有一点知足，不奢望第一。一个学期的成绩就是如此。这半年来，尝试的东西也很多，从白酒到香烟，不过没有一样让我留恋，酒我是能逃就逃，烟是能推就推。在学校做老师，感觉也不一样了，立场不同，作出的事情就不一样。我也很古板，很顽固，很严厉，很暴躁，有时候还打人，讽刺，狂怒，破口，经常都是面目可憎。这让以前认识我熟悉我的人会觉得很陌生。事实却就是这样。一个学期以来，还有一些让人很尴尬的事情，比如有女生很喜欢来和我“聊聊”，有的人连我经常到哪家澡堂洗澡都清楚，有的则给我写纸条，写信，等等不一……不管是初一还是初三，都还是小孩子，看上去很多东西还不明白。和老师们在一起，经常觉得很温暖（或许很肉麻）。实际上香水中学对我们的照顾真是无微不至。被照顾的时候我和黄月都还象小孩子，但往往喝酒的时候又都象大人。在办公室里，和每个老师我都保持了和谐的交往，没有敌对，这是最让人觉得愉快的。但许多东西似乎我还不懂，很多事情该怎么处理，面对，我还是比较死板，当时不知道怎么做，事后才发觉有更好的办法能让别人受益能更不得罪人。这些使我总结出：工作起来事事要更留心。武定的天气不错，怀念和109班跑步的时光，蓝天白云下面，和学生一起跑步，是一种享受。在这半年的时间里面，经常和导师张老师联系，她时时给我一些鼓励和启发，就算是我不在上海，她仍然在生活上在工作中教导着我，很感谢她。在这个网站，老陆，rose和zirong等是最频繁的常客，也是最温暖的朋友，有他们的帮助和关心是我常常能从沮丧中走出从困境中摆脱的关键。老陆，zirong，老邬和程洁等还从遥远的上海寄来这样那样的东西，更让人感动不已。觉得自己虽然身在云南武定，但是还是和大家是在一起的，我们仍然聚在上海。最后就是在上海，刚刚考研结束，又要期末考试，很辛苦，考试结束以后一定要好好休息——明天就要坐车回家了，明天开始或许网站就要停止一个月的更新。和去年七八月份的情况一样。但心情和那时不同。度过了一个难忘的学期，我需要躲在起来在一个安静的地方好好地休息了。

2004.1.11[支教日记]第一百三十三天

周日。依然早起。七点半的天，雾气浓，天气冷。食堂还是那么早就亮起了灯，烟囱还是在飘绕着烟，没有了学生的校园更寂静，却更让人舒适，散心。想着考研的人，或许这个时候已经在考试的教室里了吧。似乎我能够感觉那种考试临近前的不愉快。聚在火盆边烤火，吃早点。然后在119教室批试卷，上午加下午。晚上在网前长时间玩《荣誉勋章》。考研也结束了。/学校老师强烈建议买“阉鸡”，蜂蜜。我想买青枣/地理英语，狂批狂算分。边批边吃雪糕，吃糖。

2004.1.10[支教日记]第一百三十二天

周六。黄月本学期首次“早读”。和赵云平老师监考初三历史和初一地理。本似乎应该是很轻松的监考，因为有赵老师压阵，没料这一次却成了我最痛苦的一场监考。赵老师在的时候确实是威慑全场，不过他却因事要跑来跑去，快一半的时间不在教室。提前交卷送瘟神。本学期最后一次全校集合，并处分三人，115的一个女生应该是读高二的年纪却在初二，成绩很好但是品德似乎还不是太好，多次殴打同学，寒。112的李树华和黄月斗嘴被处分了。117的小男生放鞭炮也不能幸免。附带：最近校园炮声隆隆，从三楼下来的特大炮仗吓到在一楼上课的老师。学生们终于离开了校园，意味着这个学期真正意义上结束了。不过黄月下午还有初二的监考，我没有，于是到网前，玩《荣誉勋章》，记得以前老刘玩的很起劲，少耿也喜欢玩。一直玩到两点半回学校开会。下个月15号开学，一个月的休息时间。然后全体教职员工到李副家吃杀猪饭。呜呼，今年最后一顿杀猪饭。李副买的是学校的猪。菜做的不错，和白老师一来一回，我喝了一大纸杯白酒。钓主，中心五，大肥肉。提前离开去还书，再走那条老路。没有开门于是到网前继续游戏。并提前离开“金安”。/今天是考研的第一天，牵挂考研的人。/代春桥电话问候“春节愉快”/愉快的愤怒的结束这个学期/不知何处是川香

2004.1.9[支教日记]第一百三十一天

周五。今早早读是本学期最后一次早读。回首暮云^_^下起了雨，寒冷地带了点凄清。和李云仙老师监考英语。my family。一个学期的课，今天有了交代。教育局下午慰问支教团成员，我得以买13号火车票回家，2512已经售空。和李晶黄月教育局长会，闲谈，而后晚饭，推酒成功。雨不停，与李晶网前cs。/祝福明日后日，能够顺心顺利如意地，考完这四场。分享你的心情，你的辛苦。

2004.1.8[支教日记]第一百三十天

周四。考试依旧。上午和孙美芬老师，下午和申建坤老师搭档监考。两个小时实在难熬。中午还跑到网前略玩了会电脑。抓作弊。问网前老板：昨天晚上的饭在哪里买的。盒饭。晚上是本学期我的最后一次晚自习。109班大部分学生醉酒，在教室大乱。女生喝得胡言乱语，曰“真对不起马大爹……这个贱灯！……我好想我老公啊……”，男女生醉一屋，男生头上套着气球，狂欢乎？斥责，叱责，呵止。但仍不少人逃离。教室空荡，醉意。121学生动辄给予耳光吃。王艳红和李红不堪转至121自习，连王艳红也喝了些酒。学生安慰，安慰学生。/考研日子临近，愿顺利/赖敏同学结婚/

2004.1.7[支教日记]第一百二十九天

周三。第一次监考。和李副搭档，112和121班，长达两个半小时的语文考试。居然觉得监考也不轻松，还要和学生斗智斗勇，要不就站在那里无所事事，无聊到底。读初一初二语文课本玩。李副抓住121作弊的周jim。考试完装订试卷然后上街吃面，网前继续未完成之英雄无敌。发现网前适时推出半价优惠，一块钱一小时。学校主页征内页设计，忙下载photoshop，dreamweaver等。做起来没有感觉，该怎么做更好呢？/Billy发布Red8招聘消息/在flashhk一个flash上面发现老陆做的商周截图/柳蛋的防毒面具/X，“3125”以及birthday date……/经年后重读《杀了你好吗？》《请借夫人一用》《请你动手晚一点》/学校内页试做地址：http://www.shangzhoudesign.com/djdg/portfolio/ecnu/innerpage.htm

2004.1.6[支教日记]第一百二十八天

周二。时刻在倒计时。109，121老生常谈考场经验技巧。下午昏睡后开会制订监考日程。后与黄街上吃饭聊天还书，等待书店老板良久。网前玩hero大约5个小时仍未通关。夜深，月光煌煌，炫炫。/六场监考，一个晚自习一个早读/想起烧耿，也要考试了吧。

2004.1.5[支教日记]第一百二十七天

周一。最后一个教学周开始了。收到bigbull不远万里从苏格兰寄来的一张new year card以及a set of coins。喜爱，把玩，感谢。China Daily收到第一张。《纵横》后看《风流》。午睡时间越来越长。晚自习大家自习自习。炮声四起，老师巡逻忙。迫切的心情迎接期末?

2004.1.4[支教日记]第一百二十六天

周日。一早开始打扫卫生做排场迎接全国妇联有关同志。欢迎的队伍从校门外的民小鼓号队开始一直延伸到了１０９班门前，个个手中花环在领导未到之前均成为了武器。卫生难保持，花环难完整。李晶拿话筒维持秩序。领导来前小车忙。这一天成为了香水中学的历史，史无前例，绝无仅有，前无古人后无来者……领导来的时候赵老师挺身而出，抓拍，卡卡卡卡卡。我们在二楼１１１班教室扮作学生，更有一些外校彝族学生先就坐在里面了。场面嘈杂，喧哗，热闹，紧张，好玩，等等。开通，水泄不通。来时快去时更快，前后一刻钟，香水几多准备几多劳累就如此８８了。先是欢迎后是欢送。转身而去徒留一地纸屑。下午居然继续上课，幸而我没课。网前尝试做校友录嵌入flash：http://imwxf4668.alumni.chinaren.com。初做不久停电，回香水途中见“三下乡。送温暖”当街演出亦结束，气球没气垮下来。一中学生回学校街道极其拥挤。金安。想起上次刘谨打电话来问候。晚至招待所全县相关部门吃庆功宴，黄洗澡未能赶上，其实就是杀猪饭。和李晶先行逃跑（逃酒）。到网前示范hero。然后继续做flash，得老陆力助解决了load文本问题，顺利出炉。满意回家。黄结果去了朱老师家喝酒，醉。

2004.1.3[支教日记]第一百二十五天

周六。早起和学生一起削竹子，做竹条，剪纸，做花环，一天上午就这样无声地过去。下午黄回学校“答疑”，我在网前装李晶给的《英雄无敌》，并来瘾用记事本写日记全部浏览的asp。老邬索日记，传给他mdb。晚上在明慧路与李晶等会合然后去汤老师家吃杀猪饭，猪是买自学校的猪（周五下的刀，那滩血黄当时还以为是人血），不胜酒力，逃酒。发现街上因全国妇联副主席的到来而已经被规划，戒严。唏嘘。网前战cs并玩吾至爱hero一局。回家途中见舞台拦街搭建，有气势但也有点扰民。/商周入选2004年中国flash优秀站点，与老陆同贺/许徐一早一晚离去，而我恐怕要到16号/体验底层人民奉官之艰辛，切骨/忙里偷闲给程洁回信

2004.1.2[支教日记]第一百二十四天

周五。黄月要开除的学生还是没有能开除掉。质疑“普九”。昨天杨老师一句话让人寒心，教过了学生，却害怕的是学生报复，“害怕学生”！她现在接手小卖部，晚上不敢一个人回去，因为怕学生，她说“谁没得罪过学生啊”，言下之意……而我却要和他们对着干！看是你邪恶还是我正义。因全国妇联送了我们学校一台电脑，星期天他们要有一大帮子人来学校“看”这台破电脑（送来后开始启动不了，换了两次），真是找的准时间啊。上面一片苦心，就真的“甜蜜”了我们下面了。如果我是领导我现在就知道了，下面不需要这样的“关怀”，不需要。学校只有被迫周日继续上课，并且明天要全力出动学生制作欢迎的道具。今天109的学生就出动去很远的地方砍竹子了。为了给上级制造夹道欢迎的场面，必须七百多师生从校门开始排起，一直排到楼道，而且要手持标语鲜花，要热烈，要感激，要特别特别的高兴，特别特别的欢迎，我**。我算是认识了。对于香水中学来说，那仅仅只是3000块的破设备，却惹来这么多的麻烦，惹来这些所谓的“全国妇联副主席”之流，似乎真是一种悲哀，无奈。这个周末学生将，没有复习，休息的时间了。晚还书，讨论普九。飓风上网，学校主页要用上次做的绿色版，要我提供flash原文件，只好现下载软件现做，建春和黄打cs，到晚上11点半才回学校。/温柔的思念/倒计时/咒骂十多号不知道到底是十几号的“慰问”/文老师等邀明日至西村家访并汤老师家吃晚饭，黄因要给学生“答疑”未能同去/教师会上对罗老师一事各老师立场似乎不一，得赵老师报告书/向李晶索《英雄无敌》

2004.1.1[支教日记]第一百二十三天

周四。2004的第一天，支教的第123天的早晨是蓝天和稀薄的淡淡的在空中象纱的白云和你。早上很难看到这样轻柔的云。但是我却很沉重。不是心情沉重，是头很沉重。不是因为喝了很多酒，而是因为感冒。很难得这样的感冒一次，大概到武定来是头一回。吃早点的时候我第一次没有吃完面条，因为已经没有胃口。我也没有去坐班（元旦这天不放假），上午一二节没有课，我又睡过去了。快课间操的时候惊醒，发觉似乎是好了一点，其实是转到咽喉了，现在是咽喉很疼。给109上了两节课。复习，总结。现在想想，以前那些所有教我的老师，他们生病的时候也是这样给学生上课，却从来没有说过什么，我觉得他们都很可贵很可爱很值得敬爱。中饭也没有吃什么东西就睡了，一直睡到下午四点钟起来。老师们在操场上谈论小卖部谈论昨天的事情。第四节课校会，李晶党员宣誓，新团员宣誓（兼发团徽），颁奖仪式。晚饭老师们（或曰裁判们）一起到了隆兴园吃饭。我发现它的大门是歪开的，问李晶，李晶说是这一带的习惯，是按风水走向开门，他这样一说，我才真的注意到，武定城的好多门都是歪歪斜斜的，难怪如此。在隆兴园饭间的窗子处远望，油菜花还是绿绿的，昏沉的头看了这样的景象似乎好许多。举杯，举杯。今天是新年。/蓝醋黄酱油，黄酱油蓝醋/看《纵横》/2004年的第一天，祝大家（每一位朋友）新年快乐，身体健康，万事如意！/收到许许多多109学生新年贺卡。闫海琳花一个晚上做了一张贺卡和一个精美包装的礼物，许多小的千纸鹤送给我，李庆雕，王春娅，王艳虹，王忠香，许丽，陈银瑛等送了不少情谊真挚的贺卡，摆满在我的办公桌上，感动……/电宝山，冉一可以唱英文新年歌/黄月坚决要开除112一恶劣学生